Well, I’ve finally done it. I’ve finally decided to sit down and write a blog post. I only created my website at www.kimharnes.com three years ago. I guess it’s about time I got started.
I’m usually not so…flaky.
I mean, it’s simple, right? It’s just a blog. It’s not life or death. It’s not brain surgery or rocket science, or any those other clichés.
It’s just words.
Oddly, I was afraid.
Not afraid of putting myself out there, because if any of you actually know me, you know I’m an open book (pun intended). I wasn’t afraid of being ridiculed, laughed at, or shamed, because goodness knows my book has had a couple of bad reviews. And I wasn’t even afraid of offending people. Let’s be honest. I can make the most random comment (i.e. “The sky is blue.”) and someone can take offense to it (i.e. “That’s insensitive to people who are color blind!”).
P.S. I think I’m allowed to say that because my husband is color blind. I don’t know how that works, to be honest.
Dear reader, just know that I am a genuinely nice person, and I don’t mean any offense to anyone, so please don’t take it that way. *smiley face*
But, no, it was none of those things.
I was too afraid of the commitment.
Let’s get real, here. I mean, I don’t even watch television because I can’t force myself to commit to one show for a half hour a week.
Yes, yes, I know I can record a whole series and binge watch, but then that’s a whole day I could have been cleaning house. Or paying bills. Or writing my latest WIP (which I am SO excited about, by the way!).
Time is a precious commodity.
In the end, what convinced me to sit down at the computer today wasn’t that I was over that fear of commitment, even though it’s not like I have to write one every day. Or every week. Or every month.
It’s that I wanted to write a blog post for the same reason I want to write books.
Because I like to write and because I have things to say, and I want to put them down on paper (or on the computer or on the internet or wherever).
I can’t be afraid to say what I want to say any more than I can be afraid to write what I want to write.